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Finally VOR had ended!!!
Phew.
Nt as fun as what I had imagine earlier on.
but when Im gg to see the $$$,
I think it will be worth it.

EMO-ING state this few weeks due to delayed PMS and many other coincident stuffs that all happened in the same time which makes me think all negatively. Things like: My own stubborn principle, unlucky out-of-stock volunteer PUMA cap, loner duty area (but i like it), panic at the wrong situations, being responsible n hardworking n trying to maintain some reputation but all not being appreciated and thanks for instead still kanna niam n stab at the back. It is all in the real world isnt? Being responsible n hard working n honest cant get u far compared to having pretty faces/ nice bodies/ knowing when to grab attention/ sucking up at the correct person even thou you hated the person so much/ being selfish etc. At least the latter part will get all the good benefits and anknowledge and of course u get to be happy, while the stupid geeks does all the shitty work n stupidly give the rewards to the populars. HAHA. Serve them right.

Yes. Im the stupid one. Pls teach me how to be selfish and think only about my happiness and not responsibility. Im not a good leader, im just a think-too-much-plus-paranoid-plus-like-to-have-political-issue-leader. Yes. Thats me.

And Im seem to be just suitable to be a follower, even in cliques, Im the one with the most say and being the most accomodating and most willing to accompany them when they need me yet when I sometimes need the same returns, I couldnt get any back. None.

Isnt it called STUPID? No wonder my mummy keep saying Im Stupid.