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(THIS POST IS MAINLY ALL MY COMPLAINTS SO READ AT UR OWN RISK )

my bday is over. im offically 19 le. HAHAZ
thanx to those who sms me wishing me happie bday. it realli brighten up my day ESP when i got one exam on that day. this year i received the most smses in my whole 19 yrs. ard maybe 40 smses.. LOL. even those who are JUST FRENS also remembered my bday n willing to waste one sms to wish me. haiz. i gt nth to say to those whom i tot will confirm willing to waste one sms just to wish me. (HMM..maybe they are wishing ME inside their heart..*trying very hard to lie to myself*)

but i must realli thanx carine joy n gera for planning activities for me. i had a great time. and also sorri to pris n sistars i last min ps u all. but thank for the jacket=D

haiz. i think must be i over estimate myself. tot too highly of me. the higher the hopes/dreams/thoughts the greater the disappointment...haiz

told my mummy wad i feel the nxt day....she said the same thing again...'u are just so stupid' haiz..totally agree.. but if nt i plan, i think, i entertain, i spent more $, then wont i be friendless??? i put in so much. nt wanting back the same returns. just some or even a bit of effort. am i asking too much for it? or at least if realli nt free. can let me noe wad! at least show some chen yi wad. let me been dreaming soo much for my I TOT IS A IMPT DAY...so izit the older u go, the less impr ur bday is, the less celebrations u had???!!! haiz. ( im nt pointing this to any particular grps of fren, just a GENERAL AVERAGE feeling)

felt more better after saying, if not im gg to go crazy sooner or later for thinking abt how failure am i being a fren every night before sleep. i noe i shdnt give while thinking of wad they will return to me. but sometime...i will get tired of giving every thing in yet seeing nt even a single returns...

am i realli just a push over???!!!

ok. i think is my mense coming so im having those extra imaginations/thoughts/feelings...LOL

ps: my dear gals. pls SMS to let me noe whether 30th is confirm anot? PLS KINDLY DO NT TAG IF U DUN WAN OTHERS TO NOE N WILL TAG ALONG. =D

i think i will be back to my normal self soon.....must be b.c of the shits storing inside me. im having serious constipation =((( ..hahaz